Friday, February 19, 2010
Something is Wrong with My Son.
It’s very hard to start a blog when you’re still in the middle of chaos. I’ve read books after people have overcome their life’s challenge, but to write about my challenge when I’m still in the middle of it makes me feel overwhelmed. I honestly got stuck on what to call this blog, how do you give a name to a blog when the doctors don’t want to give a name to your child’s illness?
So I’ve decided to start with my son’s own words. “I have two brains. One side is good and the other side is bad. The bad side takes over and makes me do bad stuff.”
It seems so simple, coming from my then 7 year old son’s mouth, but in a nutshell, he’s perfectly described his life experience for the past two years. My son has two brains, one that’s loving, intelligent, creative, silly, disciplined and curious, then the other brain that takes over and becomes irritable, mean, disrespectful, anxious, depressed, and violent.
After two years of doctor visits, therapy, research and prayers, our therapist has finally given us a “label” for our son’s condition. He’s calling it a “mood disorder” with impulsive disorder and explosive disorder. So what’s this all mean? Well I’m trying to figure that out. But what I do know is that my son has a mental illness and that brings me great sadness for our son and my entire family.