It doesn’t happen a lot, just every so often.
He hears someone calling his name. He tells us that it sounds like a little girl, not someone he knows, just a voice of a young girl. Sometimes, it sounds like an echo in his brain, like someone is screaming his name in the distance.
More than once, he’s come to me asking “What Mom?”
I’ll say “Nothing, what’s up?”
We aren’t sure what to think of this. Our therapist is keeping an eye on it by having us chart it every time it occurs. Right now, the therapist wants to have our son determine if he’s hearing it outside his head or inside his head and I think it’s safe to say, after observing this past month, that it’s inside his head only.
We’re not concerned that this is a form of schizophrenia. Through my research, I’ve read that bipolar kids sometimes hear voices when they’re manic. I’ve also read that kids can hear voices from their medication. I know our own son had visual hallucinations when he was taking Seroquel, so this fact doesn’t surprise me.
As much as this is a mystery to us, one thing I do know is that my son would like the voices to stop. Recently, he asked if we could pray for him so the voices would go away. I can only imagine how unsettling this must be for a young child. As his parent, I try and reassure him that it’s just his brain playing tricks on him, that he doesn’t have to be scared of it and that he shouldn’t be embarrased by it. I tell him that it’s just like any other illness, it’s just another symptom that we hope to make disappear. Along with our prayers, I hope this is enough to help him deal with this disturbing experience.
As parents, we sometimes use our past experiences to guide us when raising our children. But with my son’s illness, I sometimes feel ill equipped to help him. I’ve never dealt with any of this before, I can only imagine what feelings he must struggle with inside. I can only guess what words can comfort him. I only hope that it’s enough, that I can give him the love, support, understanding and compassion that he needs. In the end, I hope that I can give him enough.