I sat there with his words sinking into my mind... “when I dream I don’t have an anger problem.” It dawned on me then that he lives with his mood disorder 24/7! I guess it never occurred to me that it’s always there with him and that he’s “holding it together” more than I previously thought.
Thanks to his mood stabilizer, his terrible nightmares are almost a thing of the past, but to know that his only true relief from symptoms is during his sleep left me feeling sad. It also made me wonder if we should be doing more for him by adding another medication, such as Lamictal, or is this just a reality for those with mood disorders? Is there really no escaping it? How do we know when we’ve done enough and this is as good as it gets, verses taking the risks of more side effects to make things even better?
Can his life be as sweet as his dreams? Or are we just dreaming?