When I think about our last year, I can’t help but be grateful. My son has experienced his longest run in stability in over 4 years. We have enjoyed peace in our home and have been able to focus on things outside of our son’s mood disorder.
Even better, our son got to experience being a 10 year old boy.
As for our healthcare, I really grew to appreciate our psychiatrist, I was sad to see him go with our insurance change. He even emailed me this month to let me know that he ran into our new psychiatrist at one of the hospitals and pulled him aside to brief him about my son’s case. In a final email to me, he encouraged us and wished us the best. I felt he truly cared for my son, something we had never experienced in the past.
As the new year begins, we face a lot of changes with all new doctors and a kidney biopsy in the near future. I feel excited to meet our new team, but a little nervous that we’ll face unexpected challenges. The first one hit us last week when we were notified that my husband’s employer forgot to assign us our medical group, so we were assigned to a default group outside our planned care. Which meant that we wouldn’t be able to see the pediatrician, psychiatrist and kidney nephrologist that we had appointments for in January. To say I handled this gracefully is a long stretch, after dropping an “f-bomb” under my breath, I immediately ran up to my office to call the insurance company, thankfully we were able to make the switch into the correct medical group and receive new medical cards just in time.
I’m sure the year ahead will bring many more stress filled moments, but a part of me hopes that as each year passes, I will become wiser and more capable of handling stress. I’m still trying to focus on being present and enjoying the moment, knowing that as puberty approaches, stability may become more difficult for my son. This may be one of our best years yet, and I don’t want to waste it on worry.
And as I watched my son sleeping next to me with the sound of fireworks outside, it became easy to feel optimism for the future, because my son deserves at least that!
Happy New Year my friends! Thank you for being by my side, giving me a place to heal and hope. I wish you and your family the best and hope to hear from you throughout the year ahead.
2012, here we come!!